I’ve dealt with infertility for a
long time. Longer than I thought I would ever deal with infertility, and being
honest longer than I thought God would allow me to deal with infertility. Some
days I have a great handle on it, and don’t really think about it, but then
there are other days, like today, when it rears its ugly head. A day when that
negative test brings you to your knees. When tears burn behind your eyes,
because you refuse to allow them to run down your cheek, because you know if
you do you won't stop, and you are just not mentally prepared for the
ugly cry. You realize that you are probably “late” because of your recent bout
with the flu, and it did wonky stuff to your body, so now you just wait.
When this happens, I go to the
Lord. I beg for His strength, His peace, His understanding, His patience, and
His joy. When I think of joy, I think of my girls. They have a joy for life
that is contagious. They have Down Syndrome, but Down Syndrome does not have
them. They love life, they love people, and most importantly they love Jesus.
Johannah has the biggest most infectious smile, and Ellee has the best laugh
especially when she is tired and it is a delirious laugh actually it’s more of
a delirious cackle. It is the best. They are the perfect examples of God’s joy.
So even in the midst of a little
pain, even during a time when I’m not “happy” I need to remember to “Always be JOYFUL Never stop praying. Be thankful
in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ
Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (NLT).
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